14 DAYS TO CONCERT!!!

Stupid crows doing their morning vocal warm-ups...

Let's make this a good one.

Dear friends, please come for Con Fuoco VII? :)

I miss travelling. I miss Bangkok.
Osaka, Japan. Please make it happen!!!

Fret not. Before you know it, it's gonna be over very soon.
I'll pull through this rough terrain that I've chosen in the first place.
Oh wells...

People Get Ready.

People get ready, there's a train a comin'
You don't need no baggage, you just get on board
All you need is faith to hear the diesels hummin'
Don't need no ticket, you just thank the Lord.

People get ready for the train to Jordan
It's picking up passengers from coast to coast
Faith is the key, open the doors and board 'em
There's hope for all among those loved the most.

There ain't no room for the hopeless sinner
Who would hurt all mankind just to save his own
Have pity on those whose chances grow thinner
For there's no hiding place against the Kingdom's throne

So people get ready, there's a train a comin'
You don't need no baggage, you just get on board
All you need is faith to hear the diesels hummin'
Don't need no ticket, you just thank the Lord.

When staying strong is the only choice now,

He conquers who endures. ~ Persius
Life's full of ups and downs. We'll get there somehow.

Appreciate Life.

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Was browsing through facebook last week and saw this photo...

Change much?

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P.S: I think the Circle line is a fraud.

Do not look back in anger, or forward in fear, but around in awareness.

I'm totally disgusted by myself. I have to let myself down.

Terribly embarrassed.

No time to waste.

Wishes to be on hiatus but I know I can't let myself do this after much pondering. Afterall, THIS is the place for me to sort my thoughts out and I sincerely apologise for wasting 3 minutes of your life reading this.

This is not me at all.

Me. No. Emo

Sigh.

It'll be better tomorrow, if only we start today.

Hellyeah, I'm optimistic!

"The true work of art is but a shadow of the divine perfection." - Michaelangelo

Among all the artsy fartsy stuff, I must say painting is the one I love the most.

What about you?

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Random thoughts for me to sort out:

Things have been rough but we'll make it through as always.
It's like the menstrual cycle; the time of the month, you find yourself so attractive, like gravity, to all those shit. Face the music, cause that's what we've been living for.

I dislike weak-minded people. They cooperate no shit. Stop whining. Get a life, please.

If we ever meet again, that's IF.

Humans are said to be born self-centered in nature but that doesn't mean we'll have to stick to it. Selfish people, go sell fish la!

Omg, cannot stand it know....

I miss T17 girls.

I feel so strange and lonely with the J2s totally outnumbered by those small ones.

It's time. Let's go.

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Busy life's back on track. Add oil!

Love, Huiyi.

Never a Year Like '09

Cool animation, interesting content! Watch it, have a good laugh. :D

I don't want to be a Limbo.

She grasped tightly to this golden piece of survival kit and subsequently, frantically looking up for opportunities. Opportunities for the future. The trepidation is slowly building up, by nanoseconds, even the ultimate fear for mass PE ain't enough to outweigh it. What will she do?

"Let the past be past."
Mum said that surprisingly during PTM today.
Despite her substandard English, it was nonetheless full of thrust.

So, I have decided to start planning early (although it may not be early anymore), after all zero harm. Eliminated those that I should, considered those that I want to. Will give them a second think-through again tomorrow. :)

Anyways, school was enjoyable today.
Beef Udon, Mass Pe, PTM.

Force/Area.
Bring. It. On.

Same boat, brother.

To me, continuing down our path is akin to committing suicide. But... I'm optimistic that we're going to solve these problems." - V. Ramanathan, Climatologist, Scripps Institute of Oceanography

What I go to school for.

I'm going to school, going to school yes going to school. J2 now (freaking fast) but I like the idea, no? I have to stick to my status quo. Today's dinner was extra meaningful for me. Enlightenment is the word, I guess. I can make it through the rain, embrace those hardships and accept the mountainous challenges set for me. Main point is to not give up.

I Love My Family.
(Actually, it's good that my elder sis reads my blog. Just not in front of me pls.)

Are we all ready for school? With school now, there's not much time for band. Time constrains = the level of effectiveness gets hindered. This holiday has been majorly set for band, really. Enjoyed it tremendously but you pretty much lose the other; studies but I honestly wouldn't mind not fulfilling the latter though. Hehe. Ok, I need to get rid of that bad idea.

Band.
I can't emphasise how much I love to be in it, to be part of CJCSB especially, despite all the dramas and episodes. The feeling I have for this band is too much of a difference as compared to SCB. The people make up everything. Although it was a rough start for everyone, specifically the committee, I know we can do it somehow. I see a ray of light during our chalet. (Sidetrack: Will blog about Tune-In & Band Chalet soon.)

Alrighty, gotta go and sleep early. School tomorrow. Bring. It. On.

Till then.

For my dearests.

#1: Family


I know I've been much of an arsehole this year for not spending quality time with the family, showing my smelly face and all, but I really do appreciate all of you from the bottom of my heart. Aha, first new year's resolution: to spend quality time with my precious family. 2010 will be a better year!

#2: Gurlfriends


This year, we didn't really spend much time together (4 of us) and we ought to in 2010! I know it'll be even worse for all of us next year but hey, stay optimistic ya? "No time!" is definitely not the excuse I want to hear cos my second new year's resolution: to make time for meet-ups with girlfriends. Hehe.

Shermain: Hey lover. Do you think we should do something crazy next year? HAHA, maybe something bigger than the Christmas Dare by Ellycia! You've been a faithful lover this year, hope you will continue to be cos it seems bleak to me. (If you get what I mean.) Alrighty, I love you!

Eugenia: PIG. Must meet up more next year, I don't care! Seriously, make time make time make time. It's something that I can't easily teach you how (cos I'm trying too) but I feel that it's the commitment and effort we put into the friendship. May 2010 be a fruitful year for you! :) I love pig. Hehe.

Ellycia: You know that time you didn't reply Shermain's messages regarding the countdown celebration? You shouldn't have feel guilty at all! Like what Sim said, if we're really good friends, we'll understand the situation you're in and you should be open enough to tell us. Haha but whatever! You're joining us! You know what, I kind of understand you more this year especially during the heart to heart talk. Hehehe. I'll support you okay? Love you! 2010's gonna be a blast!

#3: Shawn Lee


Hi bro. I know and believe that you'll put in 101% into the relationship. Haha but don't forget your studies and flying ah! Actually, I shouldn't worry too much cos Shermain will nag at you anyways. Don't MIA again, ever. Sister-bro lubzx. 2010 will be a fantastic year! :)

#4: Band Committee Members


I LOVE ALL OF YOU! We've been through a lot this year, really. All the bullshits that we've faced were worth it. We're much more bonded now!

Christopher: Hey blur king. I know sometimes I act so anal-ly towards you but the great thing is, you are understanding enough to understand why I'm doing that. I really think communication is key. Btw, I feel like a mother sometimes you know! =.= Forever nagging at you. Hahaa anyways, you've improved in some parts but remember the cut-down-to-25% thing? Lol. May 2010 be a smooth sailing year for you! :)

Xing Hao: Finally, the student conductor thing is settled. K lah, you've been very gentlemanly this year and the rest of the guys should follow too! Anyways, got JB already don't forget band ah. Know how to prioritise your time for both okay? All the best for 2010!

Justin: Chikorita crazy fan. I know it's been hard on you during the thrashing session but hope you will understand where we're trying to get to. Anyway, all the best for the upcoming year alright? Nice knowing you! :)

Joan: Marie ah! You've been awesome this year but everyone still has a lot to improve on so keep working on it ya? Really glad to know you, seriously. You've been a great support for me, as to the feminist thing. HAHA, okay lah I better not say if not the guys.... Oh wells, hope 2010 will be a better year for you! Love you marie! :)

Stephanie: Steph! I'm glad I get to know you well enough as a person. You're the closest to me in band and I hope it's vice versa too! Hehe. Really appreciate this friendship. All the rubbish-talking, complaining and gossiping etc with you has never been boring! Hope 2010 will be a good year for you. Spend more time with your family too! Love you! :D

#5: Clarinet Section


"Give us air in our lungs clari-oboe clari-oboe..." Hahaha. May 2010 be a good year for us! :DDD

#6: 1T17


Hey peeps! I'm really glad to know you all! All the craps from the guys and gossiping from the girls, won't forget them! Hahaha when I think of you all I think of holiday homework, sadly. Cos all of you so chao mugger, I'm so pressurized but good in a way too you know? To motivate me! :D Yes, my third new year's resolution: to study harder (& smarter)! A's is coming! Omg, can't wait to see you all when school reopens! All the best for 2010 1T17!!! :)

Lastly,
MAY 2010 BE HOW YOU WANT IT TO BE, EVERYONE! :D
Cheers!

What do I want?

I really am frustrated with everything now in my life. Fucking don't know why. I guess it's accumulative. The thing is, I don't know what I want. & I don't like my parents being so kpo about my friends. I don't want to study anymore. How I wish my dad would read my blog just like how Shermain's dad does. Makes everything hell lot easier. I know i know i know I'm at fault too, because I don't always tell you all things. I'd rather keep things to myself. Same to my friends. Reason? None.

I know I haven't been spending time with my family. Yes, my fault. Band takes up most of my time and I thoroughly enjoy myself when I'm with my bandsmen. When there's no band, I'll meet up with my girlfriends. None for my family. Evidently, it's my fault and I apologise.

But muatha fucker when I realised I need to spend more time with my family, they fucking hell shoot sacarstic phrases at me. Wtf, you think I don't feel hurt meh? Knn. It makes me feel even more like not spending time with you all, you understand?! Then stupid questions blah blah blah. Wha piang, cannot take it anymore.

Another thing, I'm also very angry with myself. Like why did I agree to go JC when I know I can do much better in Poly. Not saying that Poly is much easier but my capabilities are much suited for it rather than JC. Why did I study so hard in Secondary School? Why did I set high expectations for myself back then? I am not smart. Argh fucking don't know how to explain lah.

My future. Is so freaking bleak. I don't know what to do! It's like I know what I'm interested in but father has a lot of crap regarding it. Yes, it's true but why can't we just enjoy our life with your favourite job and not bother how much you can earn in one month.

I mean, I totally understand his point lah. Aiya fuck lah.

Main point is, I freaking don't know what I want.
Someone help me please.

Risk

I am so sick of the medicine I'm consuming every 6 hours, although it's just the second day of consumption. I got a feeling I won't be able to go back to school on Friday.

Dad and aunt brought Grandma to Changi hospital today. I seriously hope she didn't get the flu from me. I'm feeling damn guilty now, damn it. Looking at her suffer is the worst thing ever.

How I wish everything would go back to its normal state. No H1N1!
For the first time, I would rather go to school with a healthy body than stay at home suffer.

Oh Well...

Convo. with Sean (Yesterday):


Till then.

For a moment like this

Guilty.

Abatement.

I was blog-hopping and chance upon this particular website. After reading archives and archives of posts, it made me realised I'm not the one that should feel the most guilty for enjoying retail therapy. Oh well...

Anyway, it has been such a long time since I blogged.
I've got nothing much to blog about, basically. Who wants to know how a typical teenager is doing in school? Screwing her papers?

Very sad, indeed.
Disappointed, extremely. I hate it when I'm like that, ain't Huiyi Lee.
I feel very slack-ish, very dumb, very asshole.

Suicidal. Ever thought of it before?
Me not emo. But ever thought of that. Just once.

My life ain't smooth going for now.
"Everything's going to be fine." I still do believe in that.

I need to do some serious reflection on what's wrong.
Sigh... life isn't always about studying right?

For these few days, I've been pondering about what I really want. My future, i.e. ambition.
I think most of my friends know I was initially planning to go for Engineering but now, I come to realise that that is not what I'm exactly interested in. I can't do 'A' Level Physics for nuts! Science, a slight tinge of interest more than Engineering but still...
Business course, I would be willing to undergo etc etc, but there is always a but.

I'm not musically inclined like most of those I know are. Nevertheless, music still remains as one of the top few ranking. I think I'll just remain at the stage of "I like music." but does not have the full ability to make music. If you get what I mean.

What I truly love and have passion for is Art though I'm not specifically trained in that aspect for the past years (Thanks to that wise decision of mine but nobody's to blame.). Photography, painting, sketching, graphics, moulding, colours etc.

Photoshop, photos of every single bit of life, portraits of people...
Travel around the world,
which coincides perfectly with my passion for art as I travel from place to place to capture stunning picturesques.

Something's holding me back.

Yes, that's my passion. Yes, that's what I love.

No, ain't a good choice for future. We need to earn big bucks. This industry is too small a scope in Singapore. Shall stick to being a banker (Random shoutout), no?

I seriously think that my parents won't agree to it. All along, they have always been supportive in what I do. Even if there's things they disagree, they tell me nicely and I'll follow suit. Initially, I was planning to go Poly but after much persuasion, JC it is. I took their advice but now I'm struggling. I sometimes blame myself for being not smart enough to do those physics questions.
Everyone's so smart. Now, I doubt my 12points. =/

Is it even too late to start driving towards my passion?

Man, this is so depressing that I should stop now.

Bye.

P.S: Yet another post wasted on Reflections. I've just wasted your time. Sorry.

反省...

大家好，今天为何要在我的部落格使用华文? 原因很简单， 因为华文考试即将来临! 我相信和我一起同甘共苦的同学们看到这个文章一定会觉得，"这个慧怡啊，神经病!" 或是，"哎哟，不读了!"。大家在这个一个月的假期里，一定是温习了不少喔? 大家应该是在慌慌张张的把所有读到的，塞进已经快要爆，可怜的小脑袋吧? 无论是数学，化学，等，都了如指掌。 但，停下脚步反省一下下，华文呢?

我相信大多数的同学们，心里是这么想的。 "哎呀，华文不用读的啦! 最多不及格。" 本身记得在实乞纳中学，‘O’水准的一个月前， 大家都不得不紧张，急忙的把老师所说的记在脑海里。 我们都是很勤快的和华文老师学习。 看来自从到了公教初级学院， 同学们对于华文的热忱似乎有了改变。 我非常相信原因是在于学生们的思想或家庭背景。我就不在多说了。哈哈。

所以，因为华文考试快到了，我相信我应该多接触华文。而在我的部落格使用华文不但能让我本身接触华文，我的同班同学也能看一下，是时候临时抱佛脚了吧? 哈哈，开玩笑。

就在我打着，我能画面出BRANDON那么样的嘲笑我们。再来，JANE，你一定能考到好成绩的。 相信自己! (虽然自己也没什么把握。呵呵。。。) 对了，差点忘了祝CHANEL生日快乐!

哎哟，突然好压力因为想起SUZANNA 的部落格通常是用华文来写的。 哈哈。

总而言之，我希望大家读完这个文章后，能反省自己。 突然想起有一时，CHRIS 播了周杰伦的<借口>，哇! 不知多少人当场拒绝华文歌。就觉得有一点的失望，照照镜子， 自己也不是华人吗? 哈哈，不说了。 (也不知那些假洋人会读完这篇文章。)

The above passage is of no meaning to target anyone. Just some of my thoughts and maybe a new and interesting way to blog in future? Hahaha, but I admit, it was kind of tough to blog in Chinese. On a brighter note, as I mentioned in those paragraphs, it will actually sort of help me recap. So, why not? Lol.

If you're precise enough, you can see some of the sentences are like direct translation from how I normally blog in English. Oh well...

Perhaps, this may be a reflection for myself too! Haha.

CJ just sent me a letter regarding all those H1N1 issues and travel declaration form. -.- Troublesome, that is.

Oh my, it's already a Saturday. MYE is so soon, I'm starting to freak out. =/


Father's Day @ T3 Lerk Thai.
Good service btw!

Till then.

Emo, not.

It's a relief that I got the chance to say out how I feel.
It's a relief that the affirmation I got from my dearest friend was rather convincing.
It's a relief that we thought of the same problems.

There ought to be some solutions.
I believe.